Merry Christmas???

As Christmas has arrived and is about to pass within a blink of an eye, I have spent my first Christmas feeling lost in a crowd of friends and family, wondering why I feel like this. I never thought that loving someone so much could actually hurt so bad at times! I didn't really want to celebrate Christmas this year, I actually asked my mom to not wrap any presents because I didn't want to be opening presents as my husband is off serving our country with nothing. I feel like I still have to put on a somewhat good face for my girls, give them as good of a Christmas as I can, even though they don't quite understand! I know that Christmas is not about presents, or what you eat, or who your with...it's our about our Saviors birth, and so many people forget the true meaning of Christmas, but it still hurts to not spend it with the one you love most and have a present or two from that person. I got a call from my hubby tonight, and it made my heart skip a beat, I miss that feeling, I miss holding his hand just walking in the mall, I miss bickering over something completely stupid, I miss hearing I love you, or getting a goodnight kiss!! There is so much that we take for granted when they are here, but when they are gone, it reminds us of what we would do just to have them back. Maybe missing a couple holidays will make homecoming that much sweeter than if it were just a 7 month deployment (I don't think it will be any different, but maybe)....maybe we will be able to make up for it next year! I hope that everyone has a very Merry Christmas and remembers what it is really about, and remembers to enjoy every second of that crazy family you have and the flaws that every family has...because I sure do miss having my other half!!