5 down 2 to go!

Today we hit the 5 month mark, I can't believe we are almost done, I'm so excited! It feels like it's been an eternity since I saw my man standing in front of me. I know it's only been 5 months, and looking back 5 months doesn't seem like that long ago, but it seems like forever since we have been together. I know 2 months is not long at all until we get him home, but it sure will feel like 5 months all over again! I am praying that I can keep calm and keep it together this last little bit that we have left to push through. I have always thought that the people that are deployed are the ones in danger, that we at home need to be praying for their safety 24/7 (and we do), but what I didn't realize is that I would need prayer for my own and my childrens safety as well, I didn't know that my girls would try to kill me everyday of my life, or each other, or me kill them (not really, it's a joke)...it's a dangerous job! Today we celebrated by going to the park with our friends, and then I took my sweet peas on a date to Olive Garden our favorite place! They have never been so good at one meal, I never heard a peep out of them, they sat there nicely and ate their meal and people watched the whole time. After dinner we went over to the mall, looked around for a little bit, still never heard a sound from them, then I took them to the play place in the mall (usually we have a rough time staying in the play place), they had a blast! They even gave some random little boy kisses, although gross it's better than them biting him. Since it wasn't very crowded I even let them walk back through the mall and to the exit, Jaelyn helped push the stroller the whole time, while Ava batted her eyes, blew kisses, and said hello to everyone (even the maniquins). I was amazed at how well they listened and stayed right by my side, usually it's buh bye with a wave and off Ava goes in the completely opposite direction, Jaelyn is usually the one that sticks close and wants to hold hands. We got to the door to leave and I was terrified at the trantrum that I thought was about to happen because of all the people that were around with getting them in their stroller to go to the car, much to my dismay, there was not a sound, when they easily got in there and buckled up...I was in shock!! I had an amazing day with my girls, and although this is a tough life it is completely worth it...I wouldn't take back a second of any day for anything, if I had changed one thing about my past I might not be where I am today with my amazing husband, and two amazing girls, with such a wonderful family and in-laws, with awesome friends!! So congratulations to us, we are almost done!!!!!!!!

New Obsession!!

So I have recently been obsessed with getting new music to my ipod. Finding a song that relates to me or maybe a part of a song, I have always loved music, but when a song comes on the radio and it reminds you of your loved one, then it's hard to keep listening. So now that I am over that, I enjoy finding songs that remind me of my hubby, and I can't wait for him to be home with us! So I am going to tell you my playlist that's in my ipod as my favorites, listen to a couple and see what you think!

Don't you wanna stay- Jason Aldean and Kelly Clarkson- "I don't want to just make love, I want to make love last"

I won't give up- Jana Kramer- "I will be by your side if ever you fall deep in the dead of the night"

Let me down easy- Billy Currington- "If I leave my heart with you tonight, can you promise me you will treat it right"

A little bit stronger- Sara Evans- "Turned on the radio, stupid song made me think of you, I listened to it for a minute, but then I changed it, I'm getting a little bit stronger"

Lovesong- Adele- "However far away I will always love you, however long I stay I will always love you, whatever words I say I will always love you"

Need you now- Lady Antebellum- "It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now, said I wouldn't call, but I lost all control, and I need you now. And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now"


I know I'm usually stuck on country, but I have expanded my music wings and gone out there with a few others, I hope you enjoy my favorite playlist!!

To My Love!

To My Husband, My Love, My Best Friend,
Thank you to all you do, thank you for risking your life for our freedom, when not many else will do it. Thank you for working so hard, so that I can stay home with our daughters. I can't thank you enough for all you do, for the sacrifices that you make for our family. To be gone so much, and miss out on all these things back home. You truly are a hero! You are so strong when I am weak, you make everyday so much better. I can't wait to have you home, to have our family whole again. I can't wait to wrap up in your arms, to feel your warm touch. I can't wait to see you with the girls, they need their daddy so bad. I am so blessed to be married to such a wonderful and loving man, I am the luckiest girl in the world. I wouldn't trade a day of our life together for anything else. We have been through the best, the worst, and everything in between together, and that is how it will be for the rest of our lives. I love you, I miss you, and I can't wait to have you home where you belong!

Since the computer won't let me load it, look up this song and really listen to it!
Toby Keith-American Soldier

Half way there!!!!

Finally, after Halloween, Veterans Day, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, Martin Luther King Jr., after 4 visits to the ER, 3 ear infections, the croup, stomach virus, and a 2 week long cold, continuing fever, 7 weeks in Tx, and 3 1/2 months....we have officially made it half way. 3 1/2 months doesn't seem like a long time, but it feels like it has been a year, and I feel like the next 3 1/2 months can not go by fast enough. I knew that taking care of two girls alone would be hard, but I didn't know it would be this hard, that the challenges are never ending. My poor little Ava has had a reoccuring fever for the past week, it gets up to 106. I have taken her to the ER and the doctors office, it's hard to know what to do in this situation. The doctors say that a fever is not much to worry about it's how they act with the fever, but the ER doctors say that they should come in immediately if they have a fever that high, and then all they do is drug them up so the fever breaks and send em home!! All I want is my husband home, he might not know more than me with taking care of the kids, but at least he would be here to help and comfort me and calm me down from freaking out when my sick baby can't stop crying. Why does being a parent have to be so hard, I wish they could tell us what was wrong with them, or somehow know for sure how bad the situation is. I am physically, mentally, and emotionally drained and exhausted...functioning is just not on the list right now, but having to be there for your babies is not something that can be put on hold till you get a little nap, food, or even a shower, it's a 24 hour job especially when they don't feel well. Even if they are sleeping or napping I am still worrying, wondering if the fever has gone down, do I take her to the ER...what do I do? It's such a bittersweet time, knowing that we have made it half way, but then knowing we have as long left as we just got through, knowing that all the things we have been through these past few months could happen again over and over.

Mommy!!

Most days being a mom is so rewarding, I get paid with sweet smiles, slobbery kisses, and the chance to see my girls grow and learn before my eyes. But why is it when they are sick we don't get a little pay? I'm getting paid with no sleep, sucking out boogers, fussy girls, and the worst exhaustion of my life. We are now going on 2 1/2 weeks of being sick and the girls got it in full force, sometimes I don't know what to do. Raising two kids alone is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life, I can't rely on my other half to help me out when I need a little sleep or when I need to feel better too. I can't wait to have my husband home, not only to have our family together again, but to also get a little break! The past few days have felt like they are never going to end, no naps, no sleep, no eating, no breaks...what do I do? As I sit here complaining, knowing that it is not going to make my life any easier or make my girls or me any better, I can hear them through the monitor in their room saying hi back and forth to each other. It's encouraging to hear there is still some sweet pea in them even when they don't feel well, that's more than I can say about myself. I have been in one of the worst moods of my life, because it is so discouraging being sick for so long and knowing that your doctor won't do a thing about it, that I can't get out of my funk, and I know it's not the girls fault and that them getting sick is only my fault, so why should I take it out on them.

Calling In!

Why is it that being a mom we can't just call in sick, we don't have any sick days built into our job? When we don't feel well we still have to change poopy diapers, give baths, be playmate, kiss booboo's, make our children three meals a day and two snacks, and have to cook whoever else wants food in the family, we still have to take them to Dr. appointments, and have them dressed and grocery shop. And of course the one day we aren't feeling well they want to wake up early and not nap. I wouldn't change being a mom for anything, but anyone who thinks being a mom is an easy job or is not a full time job, come take care of my kids for a couple days while you are not feeling well, I'm sure your mind will change!! I know it's not my girls fault that I don't feel well, but I would just like to call in sick today and not show up for work!

Day 14- A picture from your cell phone!

Since most of my pictures are taken from my cell phone, since I always have it on me it's the most convenient thing to use! I had a hard time choosing which photo to pick, and since lately my girls won't sit next to each other long enough to get a picture together, I had to choose two!

My sweet Ava opening a book from her grandma!!

Christmas 2010

My sweet Jaelyn playing with her car from grandma! This is the only toy they played with for a week, then they discovered all the other ones!

Christmas 2010

I loved seeing the joy in their sweet little faces over a new toy or a new book, I wish we could all be children again and have something so small bring such sweet smiles to everyones faces. Christmas was suprisingly a good day, I got to spend it with my sweet peas and I got a phone call from my hubby, the only thing more I could have asked for was him being there...maybe next year!!